gimme a reason for still writing after a whole night's writing.....

 

maybe i am in a writing mania now with a best mood in 3 weeks, heyhey~

 

after last night's unpleasant bumping into another , well , so called hot chick, i feel terrible enough to feel today is another day. And every time when i come here to scramble, i always have something bad to say, right? What i am doing is not a confession or a narration or a meditation, i am just not that sensitive or sentimental to make some flow of words to heal something either in my soul or my face, what i said and will be saying here makes no much sence and worth as little to the others as to myself, i came to scramble, that's my purpose , motivation and process....

 

So apart from the shit above, i came to realize , say yesterday, i have been catering the others in a so clumsy way in which i got myself so f*** up. I am supposed to do better , well , if i had noticed that and i can do much better if I stop this stupid way of living. I am normal according to parents, but they are not the one to determine what I am going to be.

 

I gonna be myself,  the abusolute ego , the incarnation of a noble soul , a reborn angel , a immortal Herakles. A robin bird that can never be killed. 

10 minutes before i hit the sag，feet soaked in hot water, then blood rush though my veins ,well , let me see what should i say today.....

 

For a long time , i'm kind of like those two words often mentioned by all sorts of English teacher, yea, i 'm alone but i' m  not longly. I 've been used to, or to be exactly ,enjoy such kind of dominance of every second of my life. No one would bother me, nor would i bother nobody.

 

However, that is not the human way ,right?

 

hah , i used to doubt whether i am , well ,human.

 

So my point is that i am feeling a little little bit unsatisfied by such attitude of solitude...shall i change then ?

 

Now hot water evaporating on my feet , all i feel is cold , cold inside and outside....

 

good night robin and your terrestrial friends. have a nice dream.